Telling my Family that I'm Getting Permanent Make Up

I am going to get permanent make up soon. I'm very excited about this. Tonight at supper while discussing it, Brandon asked about it and asked me why I'm doing it. I was extremely honest about my insecurities and the fact that I'm hoping it will make me feel better about myself and that it will be a timesaver.

Brandon's objections ranged from why would I want to do it, to asserting that I looked young and didn't need it. I know that whether or not I get it, does not affect his life. But I found it really interesting how invested he was in wanting to know why I was doing it. Equally interesting was Elena's defense of my decision. And it made me wonder how much I am influencing their differing views on body modification for beauty.

I am glad that Brandon feels my ordinary look where I do not wear much make up is fine. I am also intrigued by Elena's readily reached support for my decision. I do know that I don't want either of my daughters to feel pressured to adhere to an unrealistic standard of beauty. But at the same time, I cannot deny the internal pressure that I feel. And the helplessness I feel at having virtually no skills in this area.

I have begun recently to have my nails be constantly manicured and constantly done. It is something that feels special to me right now. I am fully aware that my insecurity in my value in the world as a whole is likely driving my external make over. But as of right now, I am embracing it.