The Massive Fear When Contemplating Reentering the Work World
To work or not to work.
2/27/20241 min read
It has been almost a full decade since I last worked at a job. It has been almost a full decade that I have been at home as a stay at home mom. Contemplating the outside world is daunting. It is exhausting just to think about. My huge fears of being rejected based on my years out of the workforce are not helping.
On the other side of the coin, is when I am sitting at home and I have moments of feeling this immense heaviness on my chest that the entire world is passing me by. That everyone is busy doing everything and that one day I will wake up, the kids will be moved out and on their own living their lives and doing their things, and here I will sit in an empty house with the world spun even further from my reality.
I find comfort in the fact that none of this is permanent. None of it has to be forever. If I do start a job I do not have to sign a blood pact. I am hoping that reassuring myself constantly of the lack of permanence will help me. I am slowly dipping my toe into the wide ocean of possibilities.